Rejuvenated

What a beautiful day, finally. Warm and sunny. I cleaned a little, and worked on the patio. Decided to run to the store, but since the store is just 2 blocks from the beach, well, ended up there for an hour.

It was so good to just sit, watch the waves, and think. I have missed doing that sooo much. And as usual, since I do my best thinking there, it was very helpful. Some situations became more clear, and a few decisions were made.

I almost feel like I've been cleansed. Maybe the shore for me is what confession is like for catholics.

Weekend Update

So, mom is back home from her weekend excursion with her boyfriend. She shared way too much information this afternoon. Apparently he is a gooood kisser. Ewww! To much information for a mom to share with a daughter! But I am so glad she is enjoying herself. She gets home from one trip, and repacks for her weekly trip up north for her chemo.

Again I say, what an amazing woman.

What's Missing

It's been a down night. Can't quite figure out what is wrong, the best way I can describe it is that something is missing. No headache, no pain, just a hollow feeling.

It's been one of those days when I did absolutely nothing of importance. Read the last two People magazines, watched a bit of the food channel. Caught up on my taped shows from the week.

Emotions are high. Already cried twice tonight at songs Soundscapes played.

Weekend Update

Mom called from Tuskaloosa today. She and her friend just giggled the whole time, she's having a ball. They are all going to dinner and a show tonight. She hasn't had this much fun in years. Life is all about friends.

Hacking

So within a span of three days, my computer at work and my computer at home have been accessed. My work email was broken into, and hundreds of nasty little emails were sent to my contacts. I liked when one person told me he knew it wasn't from me, I don't even swear! But in case it was from me would I consider going out with a bald, overweight, happily-married guy with grandkids? lol

The home thing had me worried. I didn't realize I didn't have a firewall, thought it was included with my internet provider. My emails were read, and it seems like programs were run. Something strange happened with hotmail, it looks like two accounts have been accessed, but I only have one.

I think I know who did it, but I can't prove it. No long term damage has been done, and I have the firewall now. I don't have any secrets.

Well, maybe a few :)

Weekend getaway

So, Mom's heading to Tuskaloosa for the weekend with her boyfriend. You go girl seems kind of appropriate. Not for a mother necessarily, but boy is she amazing. Of course she pointed out they won't be staying in the same room. They're visiting her good friend, who is married to his brother. All in the family. And that's what her friend is pushing for. To finally be real sisters after 60 years of friendship.

She amazes me daily. And inspires me.

The Jenerators

I went to see The Jenerators tonight. They played at Rusty's Surf Ranch on the Santa Monica pier. Billy Mumy (Lost in Space) is in it, along with Miguel Ferrer (Crossing Jordon) and a couple of other people. What blew me away just now when I got home is that one of the guys was 'Bernie' (wild red head) from Room 222!! Are we all old enough to remember that show? I had made a reservation for one (yes, I was alone) and figured I'd be in the back, but there I was - right up front next to all their friends and family. Peter McNichol was there, who I think is so cute in Numb3rs. There was a guy that looked like a thinner not-quite-so hagard James Gandolfini who does a lot of supporting roles, but I can't think of his name. And an actress who I also can't remember, but I think it's Francis something. I'm getting so old, can't remember crap.

Anyway, it was fun and something totally different from what I normally do. Boy did I need this!!

Getting Healthy

Jen's virus is slowly getting better. It wasn't strep, just a viral infection. After the swelling is gone, they'll decide on whether to take out her tonsils.
And, Mom's cold is better. She was able to fly to Columbus for her chemo, and is back home and out on another date tonight. What a woman. 'You go girl' seems appropriate.

The Sandwich Generation

This morning when my son and I were in the kitchen, my daughter called me. One the phone. From her bedroom. She was so sick she couldn't even shout loud enough for me to hear. Her temp is 102. Two weeks ago she went to the student clinic and got a script for penicilin. That ran out Wednesday and she felt better, but she's down again.

Just talked to Mom, she's sick. Has a temp of 100, not too high but bad enough when you're in chemo. She can't get out to the store, but got a free sample of advil with the Sunday paper and took that!

And this is why I don't date

Dinner tonight. A 'great guy' said my friends. He's professional, funny, well read. So after several weeks of being sick and postponing dinner, I met him.

Casual place, no pressure. Started with drinks, get-to-know-you chitchat. We talked about our kids, his are still young. We talked about our work. The appetizer came. Then he started talking about his ex. I don't have a problem with my ex. He's out of my life. That part of my life is over. I don't talk about him.

This guy proceeded to trash his ex like I have never heard a man speak before. Foul language, including the f-word in every sentence, which of course I can't tolerate. They've been divorced for over five years, and he's still carrying this ridiculous pent up anger. I had had enough, and very politely suggested that we change the subject. Suddenly, he's telling me that I'm just like her. Can't handle him, don't like his opinions, trying to control him.

What the crap? I don't know if the second drink chemically altered his brain. But I stood up, took a $20 out of my purse and placed it on the table. I told him he was an ass, no wonder his 'pathetic insecure b*tch of a wife' left him, I was going to, too. And I walked out.

Rant of the day

Just spent some time net surfing over lunch. Found an interesting chat room with a reference to me in it. hmmm.

Why would a 50 year old man play mind games with anonymous people online? What's the point? I have no patience for stupid games, lies or half truths.

Grow up.

Now what?

First Jen takes my car to TJ last weekend, where it gets hit in the parking lot. Then yesterday Michael runs into the back of the car in front of him. Luckily no one was hurt. He does have good taste, it was a Lexus. Luckily an old one, but his insurance will take a hit, I'm sure.